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The Brussels Post, 1886-11-5, Page 22 THE BRUSSELS POST Nov. G, ].SSG. a.�„ys,•.�..., rw rn :vrz�rrznvmaumrnsc.n�ra na:mrrsnnanmvw*rn,��+u:-:wmmameaew_crc�•:rurmvaa� uas�.eeramxfx,sur:mvn•�,wnvute.�sry+eegru ; rmn.rmm,nmmcae: •�meaanr,®s?'mercatwvweuaep rymor.+u.?R.'R..tsrsia.... _.. .mnww.vrrmm�rsrne A, VAGRANT WIFE, By F. WARnse. Author of "THE Horan ON Tao Mena" "AT Tun WoRLn's Alsnor," ETD. a suitable lodging. She was on foot; and, as she entered the station, a hansom passed her with a young man in it who quite startled her by his likeness to Harry. The resemblance was so strong that she stopped, half inclined to turn rack and walk about for a little while, in case it should be indeed her husband, so that he might have left the station before she gob there. But then she reasoned with herself that Harry was in Leicestershire, and was expected at Garston to -day, even if he were not already there; so thab she decided to go boldly on. And another feeling im- pelled her forward—au unacknowledged hankering for a last sight of her hue. band, or even a look at the man who so strongly resembledhim. Annie did nob love her husband—she had never really loved him; and since Ohristmas she almost hated him. But, now that she had loft him for ever, and that too without any farewell; a natural inconsistency prompted her to try to steal a last look at the handsome lad who had been her lord and master. So she went into the station, and, leaving her luggage for future considera- tion, looked about cautiously for the man she had seen in the hansom. He was not to be seen about the ticket - offices, and, growing bolder, she slipped in and oat among the groups of people on the platform. A train was about to stab for the North. Still with caution, but attracted in spite of herself towards that train, which, as she knew, would stop at Beckham, Anuie advanced until she was nearly opposite to the doors of the refreshment -room. They opened, and a young man came out. Annie stopped, with the colour rushing to her face ; for it was Harry. He looked so handsome in his light travelling -suit, with his overcoat hanging loosely over his arm, that she felt quite proud. of him, and stood there with her eyes fixed upon him, half hoping he would turn and see her. Blithe did not, for he was gazing eagerly in the opposite direction—so eagerly that be risked being left behind, as the carriage doors were being closed. Annie's eyes followed his, and found that the object of his evident admire. tion was a showily -dressed woman with bold eyes and impossibly yellow hair, who was tottering along the platform in boots which had long slender pegs in- stead of heels. With a sigh of disgust, Annie turned away. It was years before she saw her husband again. CHAPTER X.I. ' • - _ The first thing Annie had done on ar. :riving abhor London lodging had been to take off her wodding.ring and bide it away in a corner of her desk. She had given to the landlady the name " Miss Langton," which she resolved to adopt for the future. These were her first steps towards cutting herself off from her past life ; the next was a bolder one. During these long weeks when she had lain ill in bed,she had pondered in her mind how she could live when she had left her husband, as she at the very beginning of her illness determined to do. One trial of the life of a governess had been enough for her, and she could not easily have re.entexed it except in some sort under false pretences. Be- sides, now that she had thrown herself upon her own resources, and stood once more alone in the world, her old ambi- tions had awaked within her, the old spirit cried out, the vague but strong consciousness of untried powers turned her thoughts to a career of art. One form of art alone seemed opened to her —the stage. All that she knew, or al- most all that she knew, of a theatrioal life was distasteful to her, and her in- stinct would have led her to give herself up to writing. But she had already tried that, knew how hard it was evenito get a hearing from Ithe reading-lrublio, and oast aside the thought of literary distinction as taking too long to win. Of course, knowing nothing about the stage, she fell into the common error of thinking that talent made itself more quickly manifest there, and utterly ig- nored the fact that it is about as easy for a woman of high principles, without either money or interest, to attain a good position in a London theatre as for a drummer -boy to become a general. She knew she would have to wait and to work before she found her way to the front rank; but how long that weary waiting would last or how dull that work would be she had not the least idea. She bad unbounded faith in her- self, she had energy, a little patience, and she believed herself to have talsnb; and her hearb beat fast with the thought that she was now free to measure her strength against the world. As for the horror of hor husband and the rest of the Braithwaites, if they ever. came to hear of the step she had taken, why, she did nob carefor their opinion, and their disgust could not humiliate her. Besides, the fact of her having; bo- soms an actress would effectually cut her off from them for ever and prevent their treble. i., bring 'ter bluer 1 , „ tem u possiuuiay too dreadful to be c,a-.c iec. cid calmly. For, now that they were ovet, yet stilt fresh in her mind, the trials she had suffered daring those few months of married life seemed, in those filet days of relief from them, even greater than they had really been. Barry seemed, more brutal, more ignorant, more dissi- liated, Lady Braithwaite and Lilian more coldly insolent, George more eel. fish, Wilfrid; more drunken, Ste ben mord uvkied; so that the stage held out attraotlous ter nor in the owlet ells livion it involved which it would have been far from having in her eyes in othei eireumstanoee. Not once did the thought occur to Am nio that oho was doing wrong in thus leaving bier husband without consulting him. from the first she had been toe obviously his superior in judgment to set any value on hie opinion, and now she only thought she was ridding him as well as herself of an intolerable bur- den in the simplest manner. She had tried hard to do her duty as a wife, and had succeeded only in exasperating him against her and in unwittingly irritating him to more than his customary excels. sea, In leaving him free she thought she was rendering him the highest service in her power ; and in freeing herself she felt, with a throb of joy, that she was once more able to indulge in her old dreams of ambition and success. But in this argument with hereelf she forgot one thing—namely, that she had not left Harry free, This forgetfulness was the natural result of the effacement she had suffered at Garston° Grange, which had caused her to depreciate her duties as they had depreciated her rights. It did not occur to her to think that she, morally the stronger of the two, was abandoning her husband, in all the first heat of a singularly wild and passionate nature, to a life in which the innocent indulgence of the affections was no longer possible ; for she looked upon him ae a brute incapable of any but the lowest forms of love. As for herself, she 'did not think herself in danger—she was of cooler temperament and higher intellect; her imagination took fire much more readily than her heart; she had thrown herself into the prospect of a brilliant career, and the idea of leading a loveless life had few terrors for her at first, except in rare moments of depression. But, though the future was full of charm for her, the present was not without great dificulties. How was she to enter upon her new life 7 She re- membered that some years ago, in the old days when her father was alive, when she was still a schoolgirl and theatrical mabters had the charm of mystery, she had been with her father on one occasion when he had met and introduced to her an acquaintance of his who was a manager and actor too, and whom she had wondered to find so ex. ceedingly silent and grave, when she remembered how he had made her laugh upon the stage. She now hit upon the bold measure of writing to him and asking if he would see her ; but a week passed, and her letter received no answer. She wrote again to his theatre, and this time enclosed a stamped di- rected envelope, with an apology for do- ing so and an earnest request for five minutes of his time. She received in reply a hasty note naming a day and hour when he could see her ; and, more excited than she had ever been in her life before, she arrived at the theatre at the appointed time. She had to wait a long weary time, very much ashamed of herself, very much afraid her application would be in vain, very much wishing herself out of the group of shabby men —whom she mistook for actors—with whom she was waiting when at last the manager came. As his eyes fell on her, she stepped forward, holding his letter and giving her maiden name. As she had expected, he had long since forgotten her; but he asked her to follow him up -stairs, and gave her a courteous hearing at the back of the dress -circle. After some difficulty, he remembered, or said he remembered, their former meeting. He strongly ad- vised her not to go on the stage, telling her that even great talent did not al- ways command success, that it was a hard life full of disappointments. Find- ing her resolution still firm, and for the sake of her father, with whom he had at one time been inbimate, he agreed to let her make a very modest first ap- pearance at his theatre as a silenb guesb." He did not much approve of lady -amateurs, even in this humble ca. pacify; but the girl was so much in earnest, her pretty pleading was so touching, that he made this litble con- cession, scarcely doubting that, if she went through all the rehearsals, after a few nights of a suffocating dressing - room and a draughty stage, she would appear no more, cured of hor unfortu- nate whim. The rehearsals were a bard trial car. tainly. To stand about for three or four hours on a dark stage in the com- pany of two. or three more " ladies" who would have been scarcely refined enough for her to engage as maids, and thou sometimes to be dismissed without hav- ing, to go bhrough her simple duty of walking across at the back of the scene with a shabby man who by day filled the position of a bill.stioker, was not work too exciting to leave time for some unpleasant reflection. When the piece came out, things were a little better. Of the three girls who dressed with her iu a largo baro room which seemed miles away, up at the top. of the theatre, two were illiterate but inoffensive, and the third proved to be one of the merriest little creatures who ever wished to be a great actress when nature intended her a good washerwoman. Going home alone at night frightened her dreadfully, and she never got quite used to it, Leckily there were omni. pure, which took her nearly the whole r tho short cl,stanco alio had to wcc;a c ,.fore she caught one was a'night- ly agony. though nobody ever took any notice of the insignificant muffled -up little figure. Thepiece was a failure, and did not run long ; but she did duty again in the same humble, oapaoiby, with the same companions, in the comedy which fol- lowed, hoping for an opening to menace tieing more dignified and better calcu- lated to show off her histrionic powers, if oho possessed any, The opening came. Ib was a very small ono, merely the op- portunity of saying one line as a maid- servant; but the minutes before hear- iug her own voice for the first bine in public, were frangbb with a terribly in. tome exoibement Which no important part in aftor.bimos over called up in her with the same strength. It was a fow nights after this ordeal that on returningfrom the theatre she was seized, for te first time since los. ring Garatone, with a longing to hear what was going on bhere—bow her de- ],arturo bad been taken, and how 'Wil. Baur passed hie time wibhout her. So she wrote to her boy brother-in-law, giving, es the address for him to write to, that of a stationer whose shop she Passed en her way to and from the thea - bre. It was nob that she mistrusbed the boy's word, or even his carefulness; but elle did not wish to get him into trou- ble, as would certainly 'have been the case if any of the rest suspected him of knowing her real address. In answer she got the following let- ter— " My dear Annie,—Ithought you were never going to keep your promise and write to me after all, and you havent told me much now you do write to me. For I want bo know ever so much more than you say. You need not be afraid of anybody seeing your letter. For when I got it at Moss's I took it straight back and down to the willow pond. I road it, andfasbened it under the lining of my hunting-oap. So its all rigt. There was a shindy when they new you were gone. George went to your aunt and first he scolded mother and Lil and said they ought to be ashamed ofthemselves and your aunt dident know where you were. And Harry you should have seen him go on. You would have thought he was a good husband and you a bad wife if you heard him. He had been to Lon- don and sold his hunting -wadi and bougt you a dimmed ring which I think you would have liked but of course you were write to go away andi said so and ho _punched my head and I punched his back. So he dident get much good by his interferring with me. They thougbb I new where you were and I said if they thought 1 did they migt just try to make me say thats all. So they lissened to reason andHarry drinks more than era he is as bad as Wilfred eery bit. And ho is allweys hanging about Green's forge now. Susan Greens come back a pretty thing for a man married like he is now. I only tell you this heves I think you ought to know being his wife, which is a groat pity. They none of them know you will never come back except Lil who says you wont and that makes George very angry and one evening made Barry cry like a great baby jested of trying to find you. The place is beesly now you are gone and if I wasent going to uncle Geralds in Ireland I thing I should have to come and dig you out. "Your afocsionate brother-in-law, " WILLIAM FITZPATRICK BRAITnwAITn. " P.S.—If you could see . the black and white rabit now I think you would laugh for his logs are alright but so stiff that he hops about as if he was made of wood. Jo• bit the pups tail off a fort. nigt ago." This letter made Annie thoughtful. The Rubicon was passed now ; she could not have gone back, even had she wished to do so, with what they would have considered the contamination of the stage upon hor. But what William said about Harry caused her to ask herself for the first tient whether she bad not dons him wrong, whether alio ought not still to have stayed and continued coldly to fulfil her wifely duty to the letter, whether there had not been more sel- fishness than self-sacrifice in giving him back his liberty. She felt not one whit more of affection for the drunken lad who had become the ardent admirer of the blacksmith's daughter ; but this last fact was too significant not to awaken her self-reproach. She felt at the bob. tom of her heart an unacknowledged gladness that it was no longer in hor power to go back ; and in the cares of her present life she soon forgot again those of her past. For the few shillings she received at the theatre forher work werenot enough to pay her modest expenses for food and lodging without her drawing upon the small sum she had brought with her from the Grange ; William's money she had resolved not to touch except in ease of utmost need. So she tried her strongtb by living too simply, while she Passed, in sprite of herself, at the theatre as a " rich ' ,lady who " Dame behind " for a freak. She had clothing enough to last for some time, and before the and of the summer she was lucky in being able to sell a short story; and then, after being for a fow weeks out of work and in debt, and almost in danger of absolute want, she got an engagement at a salary which was josh enough to live upon, but with no chance of more than a fow linos to speak. And this was her life, with now and then a hope of something butter to do, followed always by disappointment and sometimes by despair, for nearly three years, at the end of lei& time she was still appearing et a fashionable comedy theatre, where she had been figuring in the programmes for some months on the last line of the list of characters,. thug— " Maid, hus—"Maid, Miss Langton." And t1r brilliant future .she had pie. turgid encu for herself seemed farther away than ever. For she had by this time mastered some of the secrets of mows on she stage. The highest sue. case, she still knew, fell only to the highest talent; and this belief, which was directly against the creed of most of her companions, she held to the end. It was all look, they said. Tt was chiefly hook, elm thought too—the luck of being somebody's soh or somebody's daughter, of having good looks and bad principles TUE WILSON FOUNDRY. AT GREATLY Reduced Prices ! 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