Village Squire, 1977-10, Page 23Years ago, when I was a boy, there was a field on our farm we
called the hidden meadow. That was long ago, before the times
changed. and now that I am old I remember it and the old world
as if they were a dream. Even then the meadow was like a
dream. Maybe that's the best part of this story, that the hidden
meadow was and always will be a dream, that the change of the
outer world could never touch or tarnish. Dreams can't be
changed anyway, they get to be like bread and water and blood,
that you can't do without and that you can't change anymore
than you can change your real and secret name.
Now outside this hospital window I can see the people passing
on the street, the people who gained by all the changes I've seen
in my life. So it's said. I was born in the time of the automobile
and I'll go out in the time of the pedestrian. Bit of a change. But
this street's cleaner than years ago, no cars on the street but
flower beds growing over there. That's what reminded me of the
hidden meadow I guess, the golden rod that crept in there among
all those tame flowers, or maybe it was the yellow snapdragons
made me think of it, they look so much like the butter -and -eggs
that used to grow by the ditch across the field. I am getting old,
when things like that get turning around in my mind and I can't
think what I'm thinking of that got me into this mind of old
dreams and remembering that meadow.
Pretty sort of street from here. Probably looks different facing
this hospital for the old and ill. But from over here the street
looks fine. All those skinny houses squeezed in like people
coming home from work on the city car. they do fine for
something to watch all day. In the old days we would have been
watching television but there isn't such a thing anymore. That
makes me wonder if that's why they made that old T.V. in the
first place, to give old folks some watching to do, which is in their
line after all. That's too bad if there was ever a time when there
was no watching of grandchildren or pots on the stove to do so
they invented that old T.V. to keep old people content.
Anyway from over here at these windows we watch those
houses. which is a fine occupation since the street keeps quite
busy. and those of us who find ourselves here instead of at home
watching our old wives or worlds that we come from, we do need
something to watch, even if we're dying, which is something
they don't tell you anyway.
That puts me in mind of the hidden meadow again. That was
back at home in the township when I was growing up. I guess
more important. it was back then, before times changed. I'm still
from there now. 1 came here from that farm house where Ida my
wife is still waiting. watching for me to come home. So what I
think is this, that I'm not looking back on a lost place when I
remember that old meadow, though the meadow is gone. But it's
the dream I'm thinking of. like a truth that has remained.
though the meadow is gone which was its emblem.
I was just a boy when I discovered the hidden meadow, the
youngest of five brothers. My dad had a big farm, close on four
hundred acres. The lane went down through the fields with the
prettiest flowering crab apple trees on both sides, and here and
there some tame forsythia crept in, just the way that golden rod
crept in between those pansies and petunias. The pastures had
lots of cow pies and daisies growing in the green grass, and blue
salt blocks poking out here and there on a stick. The fields were
gold with wheat, yellow with oats or brown in the fall with dying
corn. All that's the same still. Crops don't change, however you
grow them. any more than dreams of fine harvests will never
change. Though they grow the food for people now. There are
few hog barns left in the township. More cows I think.
We used to go on rambles then, the six of us, I trotting behind
in short pants with my next brother's handed down boots
clopping around my legs. When chores were done on a Saturday
that was clear and warm like today in just the right way we'd go
for one of our hikes, wandering down the lane through the fields
to the bush. We called it the bush though even then it was no
wilderness. It was just a ten acre stand of trees at the back of the
farm. Everybody in those days had a woodlot on their land. Most
farmers wanted to be able to busy themselves in the winter,
taking a few hundred dollars worth of lumber out of the bush.
dragging the logs out with a giant tractor that almost anyone
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