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THE ; vraT OF TH GLOOM,
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' SoiRICk. SCRIBBLE
Once raore the soft,wiin sunbeams,
.eqine dancing thro, Tooth.
They're sprightly, Tightly dancing,
At the exit of the ("loom..
There conies: sdnie ,filother's.
Straying from her cozy room ;
- She, too,..methinksis tripping.
. At the' exif-ot the gloom.
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What;Itobirk f thou dear Robin
eobiefrom trhy son_thera
To siwi thy soils,- so tlythsome'l
:" At the:exit of -the gloom.
What ':heretoo; is yotitlitfui Greenar
Ries biirsted Death's'colii ton*
Row sIenlocketh hint in smiling: _
EXiL ofthe gloora. '
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'-there is Old Set, Working
gat Natnre-s loon•
Weving garlaildsto-commernorate
- 1 -e: exit ot the gloom -
*NOT -REITY):BUT PRECIO
• BY JORN
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-IN t'Oi: It .W.rs-PART. ,
,'N(501-ir-arl It is now four *Peke 1 ce
YOu* accident... ' :1 hav.onadeinquiry of yo0-
. phySician whether: news or 'Nish:16Se , coin?.
-inunicitiari; however important', briniglit to
• you•-.7a:tteutipn, would be detrimental tobrau;
u
case -an accession': of feverish. -syniptorhe -or -
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- otherwise harm yeti, He assures ine„ dit the
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contrary, he is sure you have not been for.
years so free.frora distaserof any Sort; i with -
• the sole eXception..cf -`the broken" bonds, as
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110if.... '.. : .- .., '
-.-. T -la being so; I venture to:" approach, you
hy,
- 'upon ,.:-* siblect.'which I ,doubt ' not: you .iare.-
• quite as i-villing.- to have: definitely arranged,.
'ane. at once, asinyeelf. • . I can . say what; I-
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mean and as, I. niean it, so • much better i On
., pfiper than in conversation, -as - I have l so
little self-possession, 4n.d-ant, so readily pit
- out;:-inIthe matter of argument -that i'; have
- :determined to Write to you, -thinking pine
to be....better able -‘,to. Make, you. understand•'.
- - arid appreciate .my reasons and matlises,;-
gitieg.--Y-QM,6ili read when and 11()%k*.TIAIT'
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' aleCite, . : - . =• ' ' -._" ' . - :== -._
'- have beenyor wife three weeks.. i he;
' horrible, strangeness. of these words iis!,4-- ite
- beyond me to colnpass ; neveithelessc'reaize-
it or not, it is a. flat. ' 1 antiou wife -you,
- -illy husband. 'Why I am your- *rife IL -wish
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' 7.--sirnpiito rehearse here. Net thatwe Llb not •
. bothknow why, but that wer.:May.kno* it in
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the lame -way. .. . . . . .
• :you, i'handsoraei cultivated man, whose
diettim is dousiderea jai, in the. world of
-- fashion in which:-..yau ino-Ve. and reign,, With.
an assured eocialpasitioncahandsomefortiine;
and a popularity that Woad have obtained
,--for you the: hand Of fatly beautiful- or wealthy
,
woman whom you sought,' have -deliberately'
1 chosen to make rue; &poor; plan,btoWMfaced
little school teacher; your wife. ;.Net be4atis.e
: you 'wanted Tire; not--beCatise- you ---thought or
Cared_ about me one Way' or the, • other; • but
• simply because, in a.tiineet urgentneceieity,
. I was -literally' the -only availablewoniali near
yolk,: - It chanced from many points loftview
• d by a. chain of circumstances,. that', !.1- Lwas
' Pitt. iciiIatly. available. -: - ..- - _ - . ..y.
..d.: --7-2;-v--.. So Tin married Me. The reasons f0 such
• -;:,:_, -a sacrifice ofyourselfWere-youhael.beltivecl
'-*-badly;, very .badly, to a lady, -compromising
--, - jier name -and causing , a.- separationbetween.
herself and her husband. ' - .. •
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: Vithin.a few months-, her husband fikvIng.
• died; bath herself arid her father had i deter-
• mined to force you to'.,rhake' her reparation,
• by marriage. Going to -work very - Witily;.1.
they had taken an opportunity. after A- very
joxurrant..and fast opera -Supper, :when- you
Were excited by your surroundings_ and.flush-
' -.4 by the wine yoo:had been dripking;', your _
head_ very light, your y judgment very heavy,
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:to draw- from you a,promise .cf marriage at --
the expiration ofthe, year of mourning _for..
her husband.- , 4 . ., _..- - . ,,,,-
,As Soon as You bes.a.„..me aware of . what. you
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!liadtlaue,,yan ignommunisty fled; andioot a
fWestern tour. were about to sail for tarepe,
..-tv-heir thi&unfortunateAceident overtook you.
' Your narrow eseape- from death; upon having
. Ae-erttlitowil from thecarriageof a .distin--
•:go-is:lied gentleman; while - driving with. him
behind a pair of Celebrated racers; gave such
ptiblicit . tj. yOur adientifip that yew anarcita
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,-c,_a_lv4,re;0 your wliere_abs;44, The
- fear_M- .. is had taken ' possession of yoti: as..
- ..sperras you were able to think: of 'anything-,
• arid the dread that -, she tVoilid- follow -and
inarry•Yott while you lay helpless was Made
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4 certainty by this telegram froin. an -intimate-
-friend in. Neiv. York; teceived the..siath- day,
- Of-yOur illness. . -. %,-. ' 7 - .' -
'• - "It's- all up with you-, old folio* ,:Tho R.
_ hat :heard you're.fakt with : a broken leg and
• She-stirts on. Monday for -Boston. -Have the
Ciergyready, for it'a. rriartiagel'.
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-Thenin'your bitter need. yon . remembered
having talked -*Mine- iii- this. Itotel-pariot '
- ,the very day of our,accident. - . Lhad,_ been 'a
- schoOITrietul of our dead sister, an4,-Other
-- sake, onthe rare occasions of your seeipiine,
. you - have alwaysbeen4)olite,-,and: , • *ndly
:patrenized roe, $otv-,,IYing: helpless, - a
onaRetor-extricate - Yourself from your •
: lora-Mai you &called the evident *pi'
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- • - Upon my foolish, tell-tale face atseeingyou, -
the delight I had betrayed in .the attention
you jiad shown Me; sitch as finding i seat: at
er for myself and my old. lady friend,.
th ugh some elegant and -fashionable- girls -
:were Waiting with ilifsuppressed eagerness-
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.fOr your escort.
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,dearly--lovecl sister. 4 The, you had :remeni-7 -_r -wound. iny- hopes -about her; I -gave-
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" bered that as girl and -boy =had been up_ all My life her as if the had been my
. lovers; and really cared much for each • Ineier cared to -fern °their friend -
other. '• • deprived Myself af•;a11 possibilities
•.As you got flirts far -toward yotit giancte- -- cif -making' other ties of any sort,and with
deninipme!#,-, something in 'my- face, Linippeee,: • the first oppOrtunity she whistled me down
made yeil- realize that. if you_ would compass . wind, and cared no more for itte. than if;
yourendsWith me it must bebyhoriestyonly..: she had never professed to - .
- ThOxyan blurted- it all as I": uPtad'• one brig4t ;thingshe- •
gest help thinking as itiitelled/- ich°°1.- .• Wasivieetandwinsoine-theonegolden gleam
boyish and abashed- a Way. if you had=- . my sombre life; intnre. Nati; .hound
Welt as if yon ,had: not ben eciAsuinixiato up in her. s� completely that when she sev•ered
^man of the world,. -rather noted for.lyour. Ala rthe.,. dose cords- (brittle, yet- Bo .iitrong),
• aption_i _ Which had Wound us -together for years, _. she
It dame across me (as heard- you.m. dumb intotly more, -wssted. ,ftc,*
-• -amazement; Witkerlinianface andtrenibling n4. &Tiny :sweet tineta and -faiths. -she iM
yya0_1:1, •ffifoar.niiia9- iittl:0mfayteitmesuosntc- 6,y1441,ie
dreadful'---..' -1- --, -1
the future: he compelled to endure. , _I
net be Mieli ' Or. long, cOntintied- if . •
With a.fair comprehension of each athe .
-iThis : brings me - to the .reason,--OUa.1 t
long history • - - .1 have always lloak0 tip
'Marriage ' without -MO tie
than legalized. vice.: I -think yoit,:-W, liP
intrinsically.
nie4PO:0--Ilichth- -anin;hoief citili,e'a*B.,:llvd;i11.:' .at 9. 4 .4:-.
imbibed the(sa-called) Sensible And p pu t
coincide Witli_me that in such a Union' 3.0 rs
-- a literal ti,. iq ri,aile .de efilivege4c4,10iit6tT- ' sides
-my ideas: are not unwise.- :-SinCenp : y ,u .
Will- heneefarth depend- my Maintenance AS
.11 et. course -understand that ri- -Wife' - .16: ;-
worked for her Own siiPport would be', !
grace -to you; -indeed,'; I= ..donht. s-wheth:'
. having Married a girl'whe, has -already:
se iti_ not a pantie .01 -shame), 1 -4k :thattn
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when *is,: Keller is . about- to leave, 0,
r-m3i. artangenients as your -Wife must..b -fi
ly inade÷iVieti, in . fact, her giving- -her
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room
room rieoessitates MY ooming to your,et
-16e-ra_ctrit,-79as4)0;1.clol'il:silleIe: ineittih;trit4do wilh
ip;ry''
have a clefi. iteinderstanding.astO our - ut.ire
relations. .. '. ' - --: - . .- .
• You lia-v- been kind enough to - appt. ve of
-.little have• been Able to do for yok si ce._
our Marriage ---4o say to:gra:'-liellor-:3thu
not_knoW What it was -to:betaken Car in :1
sickness;- 04.1: to. myself you have MO* an
once laughingly spoken Of, a Wife as g 'od
institution, ' adding,- that had you'kno
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comfortable it was fa -.Mitre -some .one ab tit
-YOU:t6think Of and cafe for you,. you A ld'
have invested. in .the article before; i n se
an. _1 am glad of this ;11:'ampleasedt at y
.speiety.hie not proved repugnant to It ;-
for since ithas been no annoyance ,
trial, 'Tthink We Can manage, that it.s
'so in future. ... i: -ask. as a 14e° p ecp..7
of: -mercy t� ".your. handmaiden," you i
will grant her some favors at the- (apse ' 'of-`,..
f
her7sdineWliattangled fate.. -. Pleaselet in :be
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,your sister.: It " ni for your well431 g the
world,-should kilo* me AS yont Wife; 4;
the -
Lord -:helping me, I will a:Willing, if, it uli'-
.helpmeet."' ...., -T.:. ,..,,caring.most f! y.... .-coM2i-
fort -and. li 'Ones; spending and bein sent
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,in ynnr, set:VIOL.; -.never- demanding !It d si _ ..g..
your attention; except So Mucli-Fas is. me
in outward. -'seeming ;. interfering- in n. 4.
•.your -pleaStiree: or, pursuits,. or :tlitu.. i Y, -
needs or feelingikbefore7-you *vett' ave
no expectation Of vinning,Yotir lave • t has
.been an uaderstood thing frain.the la ng..
-that is something neither expect p : r he•-.:
other -therefore any show Of Caress 41
ness tiPpii your part would .be. qUitel . of
it
: keeping -with our •position. ' I _--have W. t lied- -
,: With Some aprgement; and &little 0 it -
, you Sheol& una.gine it :reqoiaite, ply -it-t,
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tempts atIpetting ine',thiring these la t two
weeks, 040j .401:1101:-.111i11-1 it' was rl Wei -
hard to hive: to 'pretend an interestan - ten-
-dernees you did ".not feel. ' wiwyeal it- this
;cease; with. every other-deniOnstratio o af-
fection in our private relations? ' -
-' -„, For the 'test, Claiming -nothing fro _pu.;
: giving ,you nothing but the services -04 :
.you render ine a . full -.equivalent; I gr you,':
as fat as I have a right to de. -se, fill? geist,
liberty -nf action.' we are only jea s of;,
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of'-
thosewelove;- 'therefore all -*Omen •he :
as free to you AS therhave hitherto.- or
. as their will accords, . gave that you,li V de-
barred yoUrself for a time from offeti g any
:Of them Marriage. I hope Ao -be. B / little:
trouble tel yen; and so serviceable to ati in
'f -h11-1:
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;rte.
would e. liken I -tinny ' i. dt3 rdfeoeo't. s 1. i 1O
-great•
'self;
- -t
yont
able
iirti:
tit3r;-
only
e and :
' Bit,
f -my;
re,
;heeta4ed
eCli
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Or., to
rri-
t,s..x.e.titili.ee-tli
Life
ei and
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..framey that even the. beet _poll& -'- Of 3.f.4rs' falie, -*lie eke itrall God's'eattb. is trip'? I
laying on will crack Ekilne*•liere, under very !"pitY mYSe- lf.very much. You, of Course;('Will - ..
hard pressure. Well,: yon.,*erer hones and . not see why _ her -...n:mi•ria,ge . should *lake .-a, •
-. told me all, never pr4en:ding, as you had at . . _ . will c. all.nie 1.3eilish.,
differenceifwoeloved,and .
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first essayed. to (.3.0, 'that it ' was ;out aa- -Mfy, . ' Not So, net's& I - She.thight-havemartied as
lingering regard. for myself- as your sister a - soon- as it -pleased -her, and :I -Should have
;friend that you- sought Me now, =. but S inply been glad. , It would floe Made a diffetence, .
- ori -account Of my availability. .-., ' - - ' . 'et e(Mrse.• she Must insonie sort have parted
.f Had there_lieen-SOme-bright young beauty :- from n2i ',but that oong :have borne it it
.0Vi.31the:Wr.weottiha ,21vders4taatdic!:intaeti..ehdanydpii, nothoughttuhabu;galht.,- .made her- happy. But tioin h.ez„. acceptance
of her 1O -Ver -about whaniwe will say nothing, _
this I understood it Once frorayOrur.halt'oon-r, , save that he _was the -serf or..-inan aho. had.
•- fessions-lallthie, I *-0.*.$1.401-t.O. find, you had.' always .,held in abhorrence -she has coolly .
=• atleastenougolionor to let ineknow; although O '
ignored ;ray light to any.parter-1 t in her --,
... ti7-ii risked. vapl.wppatrtici.0- -Y-:s1- inyouriY:fujiisoi4e,.._t7a1 01t4a"...- thought
01. St !IL iheavtriit olil do p 017;-.iand.(ofre ,It; 6.fpehoeri...!saifo!. ;!
' --.I asked until the -next day to consider the . now she told Me what she chose,. and was .
in4tt".71L'whether it wci-tila "be 1-"t*er •Ki-laii 'astonished that I expected more -hurt that
setvice With you, exchange for lu-Y boarding, - -1 -see-hied changed. and. did: not find my friend- ., .
clothing and incidental- expenses. .the. daily . ship flourish ou.orumbs. ofter being nourished..
"care. a S'Qur c6inftiit 'anti-'--PLeau*.e;-• or '-ear4- for years, from full loaves--",wastiOiteunliapPy., .
-my bread,in the old wearing Way, .-. Arid the
that P cared so little for the Minor • concerns
second day after that We; *ere Married.. of her life, when, :. goad lack ! 21 did not know
Thatisrall. I believe - that ttne 7 pi Simple . .- what:I might or ioght- not ask - and not be
--stAteMent. of the facts in your- case; '1 am snubbed;' for once she told me. there Were
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right,am. -111‘°t 2- ' -'' • : • . " - -- - things dile to the man one was going tie -Marry '
• The day after our your - -lady-love . ,.tat- twat time -14.40.44 not got to..the,exteit _a,
and her -paternal i ancestor oath, O; ! At -PIST '-'-:saying Who* one 1070.). that . could not he .
own': Pkge4i°4 -thcl- with Ymir -.41--Wr ::sPoken 6f to Me. - Of. course She had only to
.consent•I' tedeivedthem„ and the reetilt you Mention:the fact to nae to Make it: -perfectly -
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' k46W-t- : ' • ' :. -- ' - - ' - - - '. - '• - - :pia* and henceforth:he and his .iloings, his .
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Now ' f6r-71V- reasons for this strange -1110- -. - . belongings and himself, all of - them. of the
. . as tamest Sort at best, were a sealed book.to me, •
rage,- Yoo.are.aware thatmy lather. y a
-professor 'of matherna,tics in Various schools .
And again shequenclied afeeble effort of.Mine --. :
h
and- .colleges of the city where e lived,
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teaching -in the sohpol,. among others, in which
your sister and Myself were pupils. I believe .
you know tha,t•when s young in,n -had--
eloped with and married one of his scholars,,
the 'daughter of a rich and proud family, Who
discarded her. For years she Was.a stranger.
to theni,.until her husband.had -Won a:name
-_ind-hanctsome fortune for himself; then -she
-waslaken into favor again, " her. husband's
distinction *the "scientific: world being sup-
posed to add lustre to the family name; Alas
for Illif ! was-ijavorl, that has cost us dear.'
r was their only child:- _ , When My sweet, -
:pretty mother lay dying sheleft.to -me, het-
. sixteen -year-old 'Child,' my dreamy, -tin-
wpr]dly father as a legacy. "Take care. o
'him; he -knows no guile; and.: -your -uncleS
will wrong_him if they can," she said... And
they did; Or one of them: . .Ete the bitter
agony of my mother's death had- enables:Ulm
to return to his duties; vas discovered that_
One of his forged his -name- and
stripped everything.
Of course, then he went to work again to
earn -oar daily bread -not with hisoldlove
or ability, but in aninert, feeble Way: that
was pitiful to see. . I think from the day Mir-
-Mother was buried he was dying. Some
people; you. know, - die .hard-somepart with
;lite lightly; as ifit was a- faded robe they
shook off to don& brighter one. !Others=
- My father was one, and I ant like him -see-
. one by one their trusts; their' hopes, - their
'loves die; then with &deathly throe sunder
themselves from life: But - pardon ..my
digression.., - • . -; • .
. When I was twenty my_ father died.
Since then, _spite of expressions . of disap:
piettal and offers Of support from my mother's
-family; Ihave maintained Myself by teaching -
in the schools where MY father had _been -
known, Preferring W.& Withoutisittance so
long as I had health. One of -My nudes de-
sired to take me into his family, and thus
wipe out the. wrong done My father by his
brother, and. my -aunts prafettedineanincome
out pf_their private means. I Mention this
to do them. every justice, and -I think even a
Man of fashion like yourself Will-scknoWledge
the impossibility, of my- accepting; - while I
could avoid it; a:life-of dependence. I could.
not accept favors from those Who.had treated
-mydear parents unkindly; so I have e'en
gone my own way for these last ten, -years;
,-and' led a not 'unhappy life, if -a-busy and -
- Wearing one. - -
`_ My: gay -cousins, all of. whOM you -,knaw.,
to get -back_ to my old place; by ,telling me
such topics she eetad-..diibU•si . only . with-- her
sister, 'het shadav?-eister": she prettily called
her. So I am desolate!- ' ' -
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Knowing this, you may understand in some
degree What- :could induce a little:Avait •like„
me to acce Vsuch An offer as yours Ith. k
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no One in all God's earth ris More desol te
than I.- In my heart I -bear always that un-:,
forgottenT love -in. my life: I have ofilt- a
. barren. waste- to .show. - - It - is as if I had .
-started_from a lovely,. radiant garden in the .
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_fair Meriting of my life, in Whic11-1 had left.
the *bright; sweet rose of My lime, And Walk-
-.,ing. along, a narrow, • dark - path, hadipclasp41.- '
hands with and drawn light and warmth -
.
from a .-figure walking close beside me;' and
though from all sides as I Walked forms:-
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come to -'meit•oftering fair fruits and sw et _
. flowers; I declined that all without eiret a •
' word:, of. thanks, 'being so content with .my
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one companion; .- And suddenly; when all my
youth, all my .prospects of other things. had -
gone, this idealized One had Withdrawn its
hand -Clasp, and turning on Me- a *face. I;did ..
not know"; faded into ciArliney; leaving -nie ,
. nothing but My broken - hopes, a wreath of
withered..12.lowers,.. - ., i - '
" Tariale - clovinta. chainsabOut ni -feet.'l
pretty' -•. - ariory- and another: set. of
I
wlicsin I think you do not knOw -so
WelIi; who are married now.' -nit gay cousins,
then, mot Of them,beauties; thenrricli
&iiefashionable, afe soniewhat., ashamed. of
Me, and haveletme feel it every- petty
Way-that:We.. urein'en how to .
find. ' • : •
ugly and poor,_ my, earning My °Wu .
living.is- a spat Upon their gentility, . and I
.have-nnfortunatelii, and quite against,My-
will,,,,;More than once given them_ cause fpr
seriousannoyance and. apprehension. Then,.
one of out uncles, Who iea badhelor and very
.rich, has. insisted -.that I a*:.- never to be
to'be invited to everything
inAlte_shape of a partygivenby-the
4.,it lay with me, of Course waul-ds never .
aecepttheseinvitatiOnS, but I, have had it
Remembering all this, knowing as you did
that- I was poor, wearing out my life _in,
• teaching in your sore need you, suddenly.
thought; ." I wonder if .the. . wouldn't'
,marry me? , She'd make a good nurse, could
look atter my traps, and, though she as
"ugIy.-as ain-and a nobody, Wouldn't -be the
&need disgrace to& fellow this Rollirt's *a-
matt.viill be. At all events,!she'll- Save mes'
fromthat/fate if she takes up'with my offei
,
It's, a choice of evils; and this would be the.i
least ; and try, it." - This in plain un-
adorned speech, was what you.thought. Then
you sent for me, began very pathetically to
• talk of your desolate. state; your family all _
dead.,:and so on;- that it had been sadly
:brought home to you how alone) you were
whilelyingsick hour after hour in this great• -
'hotel,. with only your valet -to attend ta you
and, take an inter -est in. your 'well-being;.
and that, day, after day, as you lay thinking
- of your fate, my face had come before you;
recalling tender memories .Of your lost and
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oing soils visited uponthe -Party-givers
or am' sterfuluuck
Rufus; --Sto, 'occasionally, very much ag
my inclination, I leave my little- third -story
roo with its cosy fire and humble adorn -
men -and sit in the. corner of their great
rooms, -a "looker-on in Vienna?' in-- every
sense.- t
I have Many -kind friends; would ,be
strange if in- allthese yearsI. had not found
some who did not care for Outward -advan-
tages. I have dreamed my sweetlove-dromt
and it is over, and „the tosel, have grown
above my buried hopes. • ,
_Since then 1 have-ietone idea. fill My, life
to the exclusion of everything else, pitting
away from Me all desires' and thoughts of.
?other -needs; '.aucl that toe has, left) Mei- I".
- call it -ah "idea" for Jack- of a ,better name:
I had put awayallthought of marriagelvith.
My bright yonth, but took into my -heart iti--
stea,d what I kleenied 'vkuld serve as
friendship for another woinan; ' -
-For ten years- we knew no Separate
thought no separate hopes.: She had loved,
13eell.- on the eve of-martiage,--s.lierleVet had
died; - that was her heartlfhiStciry; and hence-
forth the idea- of love had -fallen out *--Pf:both-
• •
our nck.t the ideaOnly; but the PoSsib.ili-
ty.„•d thotight-So-she *RIO. - ..•
ItruStecrher-'andioyja.hpt with -a perfect-
..
• 0 *
4 Y
•
. You siO riot of doiitie realize how the old
French iniagre. blood in i.ns,: veins, inherited
-, from my father, . makesthisa very vital mat.;
ter to me. We cling to our hopes yerytena--
ciOndy while they abide --then we are &Si; .
traught: i ' We laved, my. father and T, very.
. fe*, but -those with & Clinging oneness that -
is well-nigh ' pain he loved - My mother am
- Myself -that Was all. . 4iketvise_I had My
two; they having failed me, my- life 4.s. a,-
blant .- I had. heard of ellipty-hearted peo-
--plo;-i-knotv now whit the. phrase -means. I --
' aM empty -hearted; 1 have not one hope, one
--. particle of faith, One, real; honest 'desire, ex--
-cept to.•“.drie My weir," ai-, the Scotch -saw
, doing My duty as best .1 may, as it conies to
'-me :-But I have a woman's hatred Of pity
- my- cousins have long _accorded me ,a, ben;
temptOus 'pity- for being an ; old:' : maid; 1_
4aughed their pity to --scorn while I had. Es-
ther 'loopier: ' What more did I need? We -
:wild enact over -againthe Sweet old life of
the Ladies. of Llangollen
' '_-We ." had'. planned our - lives a ,thousand -
times; --,' Poor we - both. were, . but we would
- putsomething away every. year for our Old .
;age; and - work cheeeily on until We could -
work 4144' More, then. creep to ' our neat like -a -
- couple_ Of old kittens;,and cuddle .down'hy -
- our '.* *atm, pleasant fitetagether,. land'.
therefore Content., Well, you See if was not'
. to be; she had grown affrighted; I suppose, .-
at ..the thought of all that weary life with on-
ly me, and 'hie married a man who outrages -
all her delicate instincts and traditions -Of-
an accordant- husband. r -.. But Why speak- of
him? He 'supports her; and she has escaped
. the 'Oblicitit of old -maidism. -'-'_ She has mar-
rieds
, a maintenance. „She.says- sheTloves'hinl,
,--.. ...., 7
.- so,of course -e4e does. . , -
For _thyself, my h altli, which has always
been very rugged, 4 failed Me utterly this.
. last_year ; but as. my -bread depends upon my
7 ability to endute daily and constant fatigue,.
I have- forced : thyself to. endeavor to get up
the amount ofstrength required formy-win-
ter's work bythe presetit_eapeditiori planned -
.
for me .by 4,s friend; - :Bah 1 what do -11alk of
40 ••• t
• nee-
a teacher in the school from whic12. my father
had marriecl My mother an -
ed.with more thari.frierdi ship for him, -
has in these last few years fallen- heir to a
small property -not a great -deal, but enough-.
to .enable.het tolive in comfort, and -exercise
her; kindly' heart...in deeds of charity • occa-
sionally. -.She has chosen for Years tostoctipy
-zrpoins_beneath my own, and .has always been
itert Of mother tome. - Meal:of-the' pretty
things that have . fallen_int ,my. life, and
Moat its-pleasureis have Come to me through
-h.ek.. ;She has many_troubleEforne faults, as
we art have bat She old, and I haVe. al-
ways had F:sther to laugh-th:esia, of with, so .
I have borne them easily. This year; be-
cause she saw I was dying;she took -me with
her to the maintains of Vermiant, and I have
.got a new lease of life, and new -capacities for
suffering as well. -•
On .our way back -Abe was suddenly-
at-
tacked withtheillness which detained' us at
this Boston hotel. Here yAr accident laid.
you up ; the rest came as I have told. . --
You have married me to rid yourself of a'
,
union- with a woman you detest, being utter-
-1y indifferent to me. I have married you be..
MUSES I cannot .bring myself to go . badk. to
.that old teaching life, now so cold: and gitay.
think 1 'can earn illy board in taking care
of • your 1 belongings l • and -the having",saVed
_ .
many ways,Allat you Shall, realise to-
, that if an unloving -union- can be s
more comfortable than a•-bachelor'ac_if
passed vaih- a loving and beloved wit
be bliss indeed, and 80 when my lifg
-
you will not be -sorry that I stoppe
_ path a feitfr years.. For I Shall -not.
you Very long„ - I'ani a poor little pe
less- dower, haying sweetness or
with which to charm the eye or se
fitito grow among tharitchen herbs -
thyme, and Such Old-fashioned.- g
I.need a great deal Of sunshine, :spite
'plainness, to keep life in me.- ,Audn
all the heat andpassiodaf love; all th
,hopes ari0 glow friendship; have la
shall justifade and fade: until samel
d tho poor little weed has drop
earth, or_ ever.- - • _ .
- I am two years younger than y
-and-Worn n, especially woineir with
sorrow, age.cruelly fait. 1 latiki a
older than am-youwear
Crown; and appe younger than ylk
h-a.Ve made My little venttire on life'
-made and failed; my barque,: fr
„-with bifesfr cherished hopes; has been
-;ed, and-thorigh .I have --reached
which 1 car Cling for -atime; yet I „
bly hUrt;Itlie waves have buffeted: m-4
ly, and.ina little while shall let
hold. and float Put -,--out in the.oce
• nity, Ah, 1 there is comfort after
is „hard, but tli.ete is
rest, - .
. I am nearly through this long tit Par-
don its length; it is myfirstatlas , a be my
last heart•outpouiing to you;. and ; i Makes
you comprehend- me, I shall not have 'tten
or yeti -hive read in vain. -
Your income - Will not. support _he
.position in society : o
Ore if -74 went to -housekeeping;
youwouldfeel as:if-leo b
*stationary, more -in your own. liOnieti
at present your custom, -therefore in
-;in,-bondage4And a-hotelife is very
-
SiVe anclivery. cheerless. Yeti' h '4e
said yo ntendedliiifinh-vottiaine
-me, giving Me•half. 4.t first I wastin
•Li
at the idea,. but now I think I see thi
be in every Way the best._-- One of ft V
sins- has been occupying a yery-eIeg-
pointed- suite of rooms - an T*e4t.$
street. Harry writes me he is
suddenly Entope.:', His: -room& ly
course, be vabant i -he talks of rsentM
-fainiShed. I have thought; if yon wo
!.object- to we Might- take- *tin'
-
-hands. I have calctlated.- that t
. -
your means . intend for. _
our expenses eireisr !Ott if you- Li
to have the arranging of °Ur:daily a
will 'pay the rent and Meet' all our e,
-., 'out of this Sum, leaving -you.: pint 4.
funds. to. Meet yam. ordinary- re%
- and.: pleistitei. , By this arrangeme
see, I shall get m31 living -free; andll
. shall have surplus over and above
i-penies, as am- a good manager and
- making the most of. everything.
There is one Sacri.iice Whicliy: do
into this arrangement 'Must :ask - - - '' •
that -when we return to lsrew. Yor
yonr:valet... For more than One re
_cannot *e ispy.upon the mode of -
are to1ead -. :'I am foolishly sensitive
-
poSitioni-Of'a-negleSed-Wife;- aria
. .
-
•
ly a
fottrt
.Ver
' of
theni
ldna
.ff • •
art 'o
eet
it
penseia.
etved1
Anentel
t you
in sure
ur
edto
-
enter,
vou
u giv
son.
�f th
.sur.
poveo_yon-- off :- - -.1:craliglihtt: :1
, j :.-tkp,,t- your gentlemanly .... ' :' *.,i.a4.',. wi.eveir
the woman-'' - e'Mg ail- observable ' .
,f-whe bears .Youf natide" ' Besides, °
in' the apartments I -propose. our - taking there - - -
will be no-rooma,' Mari- servant, .and -one' -• T ,'
Pt- the maids connected :with the.fliOnse-icill
Weill,,the.aSsi4Silee.:1 shall require. When .
you are away on l your frequent lexcursions .
t� all all parti3Of thet world, it Will be:Nreryeasy. .
to pririide-: yourself with a servant. :Will
yOur.try for -a fewlweeka howwellLean sup-
ply, or .have place supplied, Of this man. -
whom you intend in any case to . dismiss..
'a 43,41. Neat Week, the .abeto thinks,
you may bemOved. to,a, lounge, .- and perhaps
.,- .. _
-the: week after be able. to Arav'el;l'or.:at -far- -
far-
thest the week - --. 1 ...... °
' I acknowledge to the womanish 'feeling .of .
,being:paultant a the ideaof-40 en-vy:IShall
awaken in the.bieiati. of yam' iadoring circle
of lady friends -my :lady_ . cousins ' among
ithem-Hin lia.VMg1 'Spite of My-lunattractive-
itiesi; secured :the husband rtliloyl'ha*e :long
striven . by every wile to win,. I- Ah! they • -
-1
listtle.kiew, and :Itrust never. Why I, .
without seeking;;haVe 'enimaifeaL then! rat.,A S.
44.-9, 'to be -.My ..legal-::bondsrnS41,-. Rather "a:, -',
cOntractietion.in terms! '' - -.. i" _ t : -1 e.-..: .
' I.The pretty. fiction of onr-iliasu, marriage::
'being 'a renewal of an 'ea -love] affair is more : •
Of an.Untruth than I -4ni used to letting.pass
.and yet has enough troth ;in. -4 to make it -,-:
:reality, since you were the hero of niy- girl-
iSidreams.• - ,So -1we will the explanation:
thus- worded, which You havewrittento iiiiy -
. . I
uncles and :Stated 'verbally_tdi.Mrs. Keller,
cideat. I think indeed;:..frain my • .cousin
I
stand • --alSo that tire Undue hate was caused . •
L - - ...'. . • 4 - - .. =,.•
1,;y y.eorpressinc; need of me during your ac -i:
Harry's letter yesterday, and.bne from SW- -
_n last week, tqq- . have taken the idea that ,
e have been spending the -ennunet together- ,i .
' - 4 that i-yon'weie-:folloWing me'honie when. :1
,A'pli were stayedlin your mad eareer-by your.
broken leg., - . .--._ F - -- - ' .-.. 1 -: -
ri am done; are you -nofthaiikfull -,- There .
have - been some things in thialletter very:
'hard to say; Which, if I Were brayer or knew: ,
•
you better, I Sheuld have liked to be more-.
Outspoloo-.abobt! Bid enougli.. has; I think;
been said to make you appreciate my earnest ,.:.
,desires and My'reasons for them. lammost.:-.
rub?. yours, -I- - , •-• -• - i PEnoir.- '
[To nE-CONTINVEri.1--,
-is.'t :.....-
. :S CI E N'T.I FLO.:
NO of. the infist eminent physicians Of the .
laid:. century, .aithcogb.:linauln to very few
ntsme...of . scientific •Cireles, was -_Professor
-nionesaft to -whani is _due the inception- of :..
;the Universityof-Moscow', in '1755. ' 1:le was i]
7-nian of great versatility of talent, andmade
valuable contribUtionsto astronomy, physics
land physical,_geography, and it is: claimed
that (in an ati4 on the atetic -seas) he fairly
developed the idea of heat being but -a mode -, f
of Moticin.-- -A. Ating, although: modest tri,L.,'„
bite to this great Mai has 'recently been paid
by- the University Which owes its origin., to
Iiin. ''..-In.the square of Ifilliversity.ion. the :
24th of January last, its i annwersay, day, was .
-unveiled . a inoniment to its founder, erected_
at ' an -expense - !ill; a, little -.,tho-ite than, $1000;
contributed by professors aii4 ttidents.of the '
UniVereity. Thik-Consiste .of & lofty but very -
-plain Pryaniidal- pedestal, llea,ring 'a: sinall .:
bust of Loinoupeoff ait; its apex, and is iii: '
-.Satibedto " LainonosbffHthe- Moscow Alai, .
: - - - - , , i • .
Versity :: Year 1877. ! ' A ttestisOn the life . '
. al LoirionOsoff; .and the 'shareihe :contributed .
-
to the development of .science in:.RuSsia;:wae .
-
given -by Professor --Solovieff,I the incoinlient
- Of the chair of history in the University. I
_IT -May be remembered by some that an
appropriationof$250,000 for the erection of. .
a building_ for the NatianallMnseum of the
.Unitecl."Statee was defeated in the _late Con- .;
,giess; but it is jtistto add that - this was
after the -passage-of the bill in the Senate:.
: The liberal patronage Of the British govern-
ment toward itanational museum is in_ sttik-
ing cant-met:with the above. According to
a i*ent report on the new building for the ,
natural history collections of the British
Museum, there were _expended, ip to, Sept.".
hat £206,472- (abbot $1 000-:000 ) This i
:still far. from complete, and.thestim of £36,.-
650 (Civet:4186,000) baSbeen. !appropriated for
the continuation of the building during the
-
present, year. . It is proposed totalotv for the
financial year 187748-a further slini of
000 (about $350,000:' - °
According to the estituateS, the building
will,have=cost no less than£395,000, Or about
-$2,000,000--nearly 'eight _tiMes the amount-
' asked forell-acconnt Of. the ifnational .museumil
of the -.United Stites.. I, • -
The sUill8 appropriated. by the British
Government for the acqUiSitionsof, specimens:
for the British:-Muieura, contrast stillmore
strikingly -with te small provision made by
• 911r.C011greSS for a like purpose, $3200 (about
-$16;000) -haling. been granted, by Great .Bri-;
tain-dnring theeutrent year: Of this, £1260' -
.are devatedIO zoology; £406 to.botany, XS00 •
'to'. paleontology; -and. £800f to Atninetalogy..
Them amounts are entirely' indepeOent of "
the salaries and other expenses • _cd,Innected -
with the collections and , the care of the •
seum... :
The beautiful colors - 'exhibited_ by -eggs
_ which. has-been .buried. for many years; and
•:esPecially attractive in the glaSe - objects,
.collected by General Di -Ceinpla.itt GypruF;
notvin the MetroPolitan. Museum, New York,
:have induced.eiiperithentst6 See -*ether.the
this ianie . -effect can netbe brought about
in & :much' shorter time. iMessrs. • Frenny
91ernandt-in_forni ns that ordinary glass - can
be made to exhibit iridescent colors itt six or
- Seven.hours by being subje4ted :during that .
tirtie to the- action of Water cantainiog _fifteen, -
per Cent. of. ,hydrboloiic 1 acid; and to _a
-roesure Of two or three atmospheres,with a
mperature of about 1201 C. Theffect'
Taries withdifferent glass the best kinds
Othabitual use Ijug those that undergo the
alteration the least easily.; The some authors
, show that bottle glass; which '‘irridates."
in the course Of-tinie? has injurious effect
,k • i - :
-uppnwine contained in ; and t is 411g".•
gefOed that thiS quality AA glass be tested. by ;
experiments beforetteing it ifor the '.purpose
referred to.
f -
•
T '1* Empress-. Dowager of Japan has been
-Making a tour of the island -empire of the .
East.. Nothing:.unusnal, in that; but she--
.acconipini0: by a Special
borrespandent, not a - ..uropeatiler American,
but, fin almond -eyed . representative of a:
- native piper, the ."154clai:slurebina: The j
apa-
- fire- Oing the pace.; -.Candidly, I think
It 'Would beadVisable`toqiut the Skid on.
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