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JES EARNEST
P. ROE,
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tl n 1. I TF04 111 0 1(0 AWAY," " ruil1MNO
Cn1:s1 N(T maul," )"TC
c.%ere u• mato moo :out l,urlt.nlical,it was
w r .i d "1+uu n. eue say that 1 could
oak , t"nilawl soul criticism of my
.elf i think in thu )min was just, Any,
yeti made oto wi ,il I was a better(
your . ermon--no mora than 1 venal Inc
a thlunh•.;crew of the Inquisition."
This umnoasurod condemnation of rho
pot child of fns brain—a part of himself
Its it were --of which ho lied been so
proud, cut to the quick, and hu flushed
deeply and almost rosentfilly at iilst.
But lin ]nada no roply, and sat lowor-
int e1 the smoky hoarth, s'1iile he sank
into the lowor depth of dcspnnd(nloy.
Preaching was his 01108e11 life.sworn., and
this was the verdict against his first
great, 801'01011.
Luttio looked hopolossly at ]aim, nob
kneeing what to say or do next, awl
regretting that she had spoken so Hastily
arhnrvhly.
At last 1,0 sighed. "I don't hinder.
stanch it. I bad spent months over that
sermon. 1 fear 1 have mistaken my
calling."
, \l"id l," said Lottiorathcr buts(pu'ly,
I wouldn't fool so forlorn and ndsurablo
over that. 1 don't think it's auuelt of a
calling anyway."
a " 011, Miss Marsden 1" Ito ejaculated,
int a :iliat0(t tone.
"1'(i siucerc in what I say," sho con-
tinued. earnestly. "Please don't mss.
understand me. As far as I and a judge,
111,1011 your 500111On seas well writt:•u,
and it certainly was delivered c.ffe tual-
ly ; for, thought none of us Clad it, wo
coulcln t help listening. But its strong-
est effect was to make mo wisli I was
an Model, and, like Mr. llarcourt, did
not he Noce in anything. I honestly
think that it will bo a very poor calling
to go out among the poor pooplo on tho
frontier and preach such a gospotas you
;;ace, us this morning. In the uamo of
pity, haven't wo enough to contend with
new? lu addition to the scalping in -
1110(1 , rho border 1tiflans, Ibo grass-
hoppers, and goanding poverty, aro you
going to givo thole a religion. lu• which
tie farmed of affliction and the eru-
ciblo of trial flames in tho centro?
Poor creattuos 1 I suppose they aro in
hard and hot places Most 01 the time,
but don't make them think that God
pmts thous there, and that there is no
chance to got out till Heir; through with
them. I can toll you boforo baud that
popple tiro not going to get into tho
fiery furnaco and conmloueo having a
miserable limo of it before they must:
Let us be as comfortable as two eau,
1vhile We can. if yon fool that yon
have mistaken your calling—and I hone
yon havo—I'ln sero that father, at my '
request, will lied you a .hotter one iu
New York."
Poor Remand. wag as satisfied
a8
Luther 144c1144c1boon that this was a temp-
tation of the awn; but boforo hhim was
uo smelt apparition as that against
•
which the groat reformer could hurl
his int tern without leaving a spot.
With than lurid flash cf Lucifer 5ho
f1.11 Prion 1100v1.u, tho thought passed
through his diaquicted mind, "and in
Now 1011. I night vin tin heart and
hand of this beautiful girl." But every
qn ,lite of leis, soul iroiwurd so darkly on
Lida 1hmtglit, \Odell Held out Lottio
\hun(1,211 as' a bribe, that it soon skulked.
away. • Ilia nliud roverteil to the Main
dillioulty, and ho said:
":sunny Miss 1118184011, I did not
preach such a religion as you suggest."
` \'ou surely din, Mr Ilcrosteact, as. I
could soo,- prove to you. I am glad you
are so icon:,tateuL a professor of your
religion,"
" .tui I an Jueonsistent professor?" lio
'ashcan sadly.
"Iideert you are," sho replied) ; and
both mischief anis Wildness lurked hi
her eyes. " Ton don't livo up to your
(loutaaues at ,,ll."
Littlo wotulm Bum," he exclaimed
in bitter soh-con(lonmation, a' that all
turn from lay teaching."
She looked at Mini with a curious
smile, as 8110 thought, " What a child
he is l 1 to is but wax in my hands. If
ho should marry a eohd.hearted, Huffish
0vnaul0, with a spice of potty, teasing
malice hi her nature, alio could sit down
quietly ,it his hearth and torture to
death this overgrown ,pan, with 1011010
libraries in his brain. I could wring his
soul now try making ]situ think that he
had lived so unwortlily that Ivo could
not listen to 1118 11100t unworthy sor-
111011."
into
led hint out of his strong self.
condemnation into (goal perplexity, by
saying, " 1.1(111)1 most of aha World, you
aro so much bottor than year creed as
to 1> utterly iuconsistont."
Ho11000)0 and sat down near her, with
anal' an app(aliur, helpless look, that
all;! langlital outright.
Pleaao (don't laugh at mo,.' .110 said
with 0 glimmer of a smile, " because
this to me is 0 Moro 50rious matter elan
you or any ono can understand."
" I don't laugh unfuolingly, 10s(4uro
yon," sho said earnestly, " 1 novel was
mono sincere in my life than 1 lvag this
afternoon, but I tut ono of those riclis
onions mortals who cannot take things
coolly, and as I said at (ileum, thero aro
times whoa I must oithor•laugh or cry,
1 110ve1 passed a more Miserable clay in
nny life than yastorclay, Yon, terrible
magician, whomI havo sca0coly known -
a week, havo awakened in my heart a
giant ; and yos terday and to -day he has
been shaking my soul With his mutter,
logs and tllrcatoniugs. I could. always
manage my conscie0eo before, and smith
it into quietness when it 1)OCan101111101y.
But as I said., from a whining child it
has suddenly grown ilio a throatoning
giant, more Bandl oven than you tho
other evening{. 1 wont to church this
horning, hoping to find 801110 comfort,
Sonne remedy, but, halt as tho diseaso 1s,
the ton1Ody imams far worse. 1 damn
down s'ttirs this afternoon in no amiable
mood with yo1 or your theology, but
was (li)(1)1100 by Booing you is as bad a
plight as myself*. T for your Mediating ,
will kill bout doctor audpaticnl. During
the, Bast w0011 you havo beers astron,,
i' u,,,l 111 with .tit 1 11 11)11101414:1
gash tad 1 was thinking now to Coity
za'nco; then eamn this awful Sunday
and your awful s0rnt,,u, wlririz made MO
both 10a,, and hate tied, and want to
]scop array from Hilo as far and as long
0) 1 can,"
"Tour words perplex and sarldon Ina
beyond nmauure, 'said llourstcad, " Yon
belong to the very class -that 1 lied hoped
to bonelit,—those who admit that thoy
aro without faith, but who aro not so
mixerso to tho truth but that they may
lin woo to it. And yet you say that the
wlohn force of any sernu,u is to make you
wish that you cook l be 00 infidel. :Lean.
not uudorsta>ul it. If I havo mistaken
my calling 1 could not motto you or any
ono comp() loud the depth of my sorrow
or rho bitterness of my disn,ppomturteut.
In tin call]ug of the ministry it has ever
scone d to me that I could work a con•
tiny with eI husiasnl. But in any other
wwik I should ho but a drudgo, for my
Wart would not lei in it. You know know
young new often feel about these things.
Ohm has a natural bont fur the law,
auditor for medicine, and another for
basun s (r s n m:e, 1. had fondly hoped
that I was a predestined minister, lied
this hello has sL•rongtl>ened w'itl, years
and beconio inlvrought with avcryfibro
of my soul. I was willing to con:mei:co
in a very hunnblo way, and anywhere
that God would set ono to work; but if
the affect of my preaching is to drive
people away from Iiiiu, the sooner I givo
it 011 up tlm bottor."
"1Tow different our tastes and plans
for life aro 1" saki Lottie, musingly. "It
appears strange that you should have set
your heart so strongly ou what is so dis-
mal to me. And yet such- is tho evident
depth of your regret that I do fool for
you very much."
Ilclnstcad rose and took afow abrupt
torus up and down the room. Lotti;
watched him with increased interest.
Ifo had shown her his weakness, aucl
slit perceived that Ho would also show
his strength. After a moment ho loauod
on the mantel before her, and said in
quiet, decisive tones:
" .Miss Marsden, I havo given you the
right to speak to mo very plainly. I
honestly wish light on this subject, and
intend to settle this question at the
earliost moment possible. God knows I
do not want to thrust myself unbidden
Into the sacred ounce. If I am not worthy
of the calling, thon the sooner Ifind it
out the bettor, and so try to content my-
solf with soma l mblor work. Not only
from what you have said, but from the
remarks acct aspect of others, I •aln
satisfied that my effort this morning was
worse than a failure. You Karo a -mind
of unusual vigor,. and a good faculty i0
expressing your thought. Won't you
giro zee a keen, truthful analysis of the
Wholo sortie() 1 It is to tin world I ant
to preach; and I wish to know just how
what I say strikes the world. 1 kuow
that Christian doctrines havo over been
unpalatable, but if there is something in
my pr.; -citation of them that is going to
make them tenfold more so, thou.:[ will
ho dumb. I would rather llhclu iu a
desert than drive ono soul from God, as
yon intimated. You wort, bravo enough
to let nus speeak to you, almost harshly I
fear , now 0(0 if T have not equal cour-
age hay the very worst thiuga that
you believe trim, and yon may help mi:
very much toward conning to the most,
important daeision of my life."
" Oh (dear," said liottie. " I'iu not fit
to counsel a downy chicken. I wish you
didn't take this luattor so much to heart.
Yon look as if I might be your rseem-
tionar."
' You can bo my faithful surgoon and
do soul" wholesome cnttiug,"
Well," " ionic Lade, dismally, it
rather givo you ether: or laushing gas
first."
" That is more kind than wise." rte re-
plied, smiling; "in moral and hlclttal
sur ea the patient have 1is
facultios."
" There 1" sho (mc,tinlcd 101111 :1n'nla-
tion, " 00 aro illustrating by contrast
my chief complaint against your pruacic.
ing. \Phan yon told me my faults you
did so gently, and 'appeared pained iu
;.swing iso pain ; Hud now I arc I,onustly
sorry to say words that I know willluu't
yon. And .I know my words wilt hurt
and discourugo you, for if tho trouble
were in you it might bo remedied, but it •
is in what yon teach, and of coucs" volt
teach -what yon beliovo, and won't say
smooth
things asT believe other minis-
ters do lou rcpre tient d Gad (.anti and
nuelcn'*c ,hle ens fate, as unrehe otic ; r,tul
nounmassiouo(l. Tn thh•, spirit you par.
traycd Rim taking ell ono life after
another and petting it into tie f.trnaeu
of affliction, to 80) what Ho can make
of it. You illnstratcrl 1lis manner of
doing this by tho sculptor with iris
unfeeling marble, by tho tanner wit11
crude ore, and by tho surgeon, and yen
forgot to say that the last stupefies Ilia
patients betora cutting. Yon gave 1110
tho impression that as soot as Ood set
about snaking us bottor wo would find
oursolves iu trouble, tud that, like ter.
tain schoolmasters of tho old regime, Ino
had faith in nothing save tho rot. You
know tllo natural fooling of children to-
ward snoli podagogors, .I.tow pan wo
help fooling in the salmi way toward
God? '.11100 you presented God as full
o.f inflexible punposos, but tho oftener
you told 118 1)0 could nob help oursolvos,
and that utero was 100 use rosistin g, tho
more I felt liko rnsis,4ing, Tito idea of
oubtiug and' carving cllaractor out of 1
a:aivarnlg human hearts as if they were
macro of marble I1 •Tho idea of putting ;
0(1o, liko a lwop 01 000, into a crucible,
and thou coolly sitting by to sco what
bocomos of it. 1'u nob a lnur) of ore,
and if I mod handl treatmc ut .1.11x111 1„
dono sympaLhoiially, fooliugly, .or twill
1)000mo a Tactor instead of a saint, The ,
tears in your eyes the other night, Mr.
7.Ioniatend, cid ma 111000 good than all
your wise wards,"
3bbinstead looked as if a light woro
divining np0. lzim. 1
.0tt spoke of this ..Po, cont nuo(t
L,ottte, "ns it it ware nothing, and that
Y cl
didn't cart'--indOeld 0141,0700 d a1 i
s.�
1 •'7SE LS PQ a ['
.... ."t.C.T9 ":.;mC:7c.'SmMmear_..-`'"` I'+ia-^ '- Zp15:. G+S atise,sisJ .
our paving a nava tom) norm al01,110 .a 81,1 140e't, Upon(!ten, ({101190 L011eS (, L0.7 wean Oarzcw:.
might bo mom sure of 0 good tine- 1 "- ,:110 read the alicic•uL story of human thoughts. His un"aildhleSo had utterly
after. You spoke of (lord as j4 ai (iaty I,.eilol•iug and (orr1w', the scones passed vauiahcd ; and Zottie aeknowludgcd
watching, lest we should love earthly in seemiug reality before filo student. that she had Hover seen a nobler•luolting
1ionds more than 'Bin, and that 1}e lin was latens01y excited though so man. She felt that perhaps they were
was bound to ho first, if llo had to nuateh quiet, When ono with a strong mind both on tho threshold 111 a larger incl
away o'vorything that we loved ]host. rec'ognizea that hu is approaching a riolicr life than theyJlad 0:1(1 Inman be-
1'haroforo, loon sho mother must keep crisis ill life, tborl i+; 01 stave 1110t calms fore, bile Saw dimly, as tuiough a
chilling her natural novo for her child, or and (0nt oki, 1,ottie, with lair hltunae mist, that which her' heart lonood to ht.
vitality, e(ml arouse even a sluggish hove—tho truth tit,,1 (Jud docs craft,
]stall' ,. I;ut to (1,1311(0 1'nistett(1, with ltba01 His earthly children --that 110 was
his vivid fancy and largo faith, this net to her amore shaping force or'
beautiful but ornate creature reading power, brit 0 tender. Ln,tic h, 1te,i
the neglected Bildo, to 1141 for him 11 helper. `i'hom:fort, (4111) waited 4: t, r1;
Occludes and smelter r gospel than Inc had and. hopefully for J Iemstr,ol to speak.
preached sc a1(1 a special providence But he felt that the ';laid tumult it
that presaged more than ho tiara(' to lois mind rendered 1,!m unlit to hr' bar
couj oluu,: and ho 1111 (1e(1 as 0)1e wlio guide fast then, rand therefore said--.
0spc•a' (1 a uea' 1'':1(1)11100, ";11(14(4 Marsden, T 1t am, tv think
1 talood l ,Oi, boas was Wing its calmly and carefully 01. r wind,
c� goys
of light vera .uiver- havo said. I want to ta,•, this iso , •
tn„ Lhre u„ 111,. lice ,1 ..n '.nil bitter of all texas, ' -Jesus swept.' as :4 1.'.nq, iu
words of protest against lite sl l'leon part 103' hand, and wall (t explts e thr rr'r;i,
, mighty poor sense and very tulnataral•" already shown hut, in a measure, that of the liillle. 4110011dy it si" n s 04 it It
holostc111 shaded llhs burning face hokat" exagget'att(l,in 11i?I first cln,lo might bo like ((Hying .a light ;Inn.t
with his hallus. sermonizing, (Inc truth, a]Il left out 1110 treasure vault ; aid that when, h•! ore
"These, I knew I should hurt you-- balancing and correcting tenth. hemi- was darkness, gems and riches now gib'
no (doubt 1 seem very irreverent, but y( n liar with all tlm story of Lal<arn?:, big glitter."
11avo noidea. howls=restraniingmy"u'lf mind travelled beyond the reader, and And I, who have hail the goal fel'•
for your sante. I'm so provoked and lo- with uli,,:,I, 1 joy and self-con,leneett;•,.t time to strike the light for you, ala in
diqu Ont a1 ell, woll, what's tho 080 ? As Ile already Megan to see how he hail leis- 11)4 ln(.autirne to sit 00114110 alto ' trent.
you mid., wo can't help ouracl elve4, and ropresent"t110 God of love'. il-itll ia- sure-canit,' and perlutpa nebular see nor
into C. • fiery furnaco Lottio • Marsdr a tense ca orris fro 11•atc:li0ll and waited get any of the genes,' 1 neither
ogre,'
will t..) beturu long only there will h,, to son tlu: (iir'ct of 1110 cinill' clo at,ry at all to your glortim; aline over what
nothing left of m(1 but a little cinder. on l.ottio'4 eriu,l, may 130 di4cawered ."
"And can you thins. I would wish to
gloat alone' ?" soba H4mstca 1, rodden•
Mg. " 11 wilt ho my 1100f joy to bring
back all 1 find to you."
" I'm not. that kind of a girl," said
Lottie, with a 1!ttlo emphatic gesture.
" If I wanted something from the top of
a mountain, 1 would not send a man for
it, but would go with him after it. This
helpless waiting, or, languid looking on,
while mon rho everything for us, is as
absurd in one direction as the Indian
custom of making the squaw do all the
hard work in another. I don't see why
we can't take this genial little lamp of a
t ixt, and do some. exploriogtogother. I
will hold the lamp, aud you do the look.
ing. Hero is the Bible, and t11or0 Js
your seat beside this dismal, smoking
tire. I fear you have treated it as you
chill us this morning—put on green
0)0011."
" I bink you aro right in both cases,"
ho said, his toll -tale color again sodden.
ly rising.
" No matter, it was good 0)00(1 in
both cases, as you will 800 when it be.
comes ripe and dry."
" It will novor do for me to become
dry as a preacher, bliss .liarsden."
Tos, will in my 8o1150, for then you
will ]dndle more easily, aid therefore
idadlo others. But come, I am holding
the lamp, ' Jesus wept.' Everything
you can find in the Bible+ that will con-
firm. the hope of God'; sympathy—that
Ho cares for us as we are, with all our
faults and weaknesses, will bo unost web
0mu0."
Luttle was 4P110Pitiwa ao l determined,
awl hor manner su irre 14tible, that
II(ulstead had no other thought save
that of compliance. She had that
piquaint iluperilusuess, to whicin mon
aro tilling slaves ' hen manifested gra-
cion,ly, and by a uretty w011nt11. flu
was like a ship caught in a ga le,aud there
wa, nothing to do hut scud bc'foru it.
At the sanuy tiulu, it seemed that s11
was driving 11ia1 swi!th toward the
]raven and rust of ]a Iota(., and broader
faith.
'1'ltercfnr4 111' sat down by the (h, --mal,
smoky hearth, Lad turned expectantly •
to her face that, in contrast, was rll
aflame with hope and interest.
"•1he iniprtsnl;n g00w•a upon m4," he
said, "that you arc being guided, and
therefor/. you shall guide it '
" 1 want to settle the nr ,tio11,'' she
rep110(1, " whether I can love and trust
God; ,,r wlctllar, as I leased. this tuorn•
iug.TInan.t dread and alulosthate Ilion. 11
(41001 to on, that the only thing religion
docs for. emisin Belle is to make lien Un-
comfortable. If what you told us, and
what she 001)0110110014, ia tiue icligion,
then shall i ur„o it and forget t<11
about it as king as T cant—till boil eons-
immeos, with 11ie,an,lpetslu 1,y sway of
t'•a1into the fiery forme:: of ,t1i lclian.
1 dear Duly a !idler would b1 the result.
But if the natinial 11th nate it of dia.:0
1111 ,,d d ..,n wept ' r t1..', shalt
(Purl is Maids., 1,,nth t auri11:001i,• ,:1
nh'iic• than any human (41(.41. l'sse
to ;m t: .i ill . Ono who, opt nF 111'0
trialerillearteituess. sus b.n•attsa
ethers aro(md len 1,.5( NV: ep, v,, event
•hough aahout 10 m110v0 1110 0;111.'43 01
their sorrel 114 the (sal of the 10de, and
I will th't± 1, vat with et L, ci :e and
) punas nein great ul(. Llu n your
t::olio adl1,0 o,,1,1__ , 1 u(;,•; hu
1, ay 1(111>. Yon say tin "(11 sari Nor
u, 10141>oth ..± li;e one 1,111' ,10, you
Woll. it is 411 eat T,, mast; t 1
11108t dread. Itis.1 (1 wa,, 100,1
1 anvil:lu±(1:, curl s10 11', 11(01' rites,
.1.1111,11 (1,41 old 1)'',, 'acts sty ;nal]
awful thin n. Bait, 1'11 ad. diet, it's
all very \et,,u411110 flint o1 nil mind.
Cali you Mut anything in. Via )11'i'usba-
i w'cii that c,rat:ponds t1!tlt tho words
' Jesus wept y„
'1.'he. strident 1:1>111dly. tamed 11:0leaves
( Bildt) tt (1t his hip. and
t f the largo }, i
read :
Your words have s one-sided
elle that
” Like as a fathcrpit(etl Ids children,
I havo you a cantle and eta -sided'.' c so the Lord pita til uncoil that fear
Thoughts aro thronging 80 111)011 my 11111,
1Mnd than I alp eontlsod, but it comes • 1"'lir 110 knmwoth am: fealto; 1lo ro-
to 1110 With 011110st tlto force of an in.
]nolubercth that w0 are' but dust, '
spiratiou that Christ's tears of sympathy r''1'lutt tits like light to the eye," ex -
11
alto key to tho whole Bible." i;ladmed Lntth), with exult'rtiu,. "What
" Well," said Lotti;, 1ni 11 1o1v tone, beconi's of you: 141 muni,1111.1h orstead,
"I call see 1101)' they might becollie a in 0ie0 of 611011 texts 1 Truth is not
key to MY heart. Como, l\1x.1It instead, cnuta adictory."
I bni'o boon a 'heathen up to this Mine; " You shall see in a moment. Miss
and I hope you havo been a horotie•. if \ftrsituui what b00)1) 0)1 of ray s4rauun.,.
you ca explain alto Bible ill necol da11ed. j foul ho hastily.1, ft the room.
with Christ's tears, as 11e wept, schen ; \\ hila Lottio was wondering at his lie.
tu>
wholo Story, real sec if wo cannot
the kdnd('st elan living wendd hay, tion, ho rettnued and threw the spoon
111' 1 something that will not make tho 51)1110(1, in 11ew of 11)0 ohangc so soon to script ou the hearth, ltr:4, 11hilo the
:1, r 1 /1011)61 a mockery," utero'—thou ',roach byall mimes. '1 litI grt'au loped noun baa: 1 (4400 ing se
•' Won't yon read it?' asked limn- is tin hind of gospel two want. .I f .i. madly it blain dried and t in(llnid ; and
stead humbly, handing hen: the bible, 001dd believe that (load felt with, and ITctustoad'e l ovy Hereon. so f:u' from
Yes, if you wish too to, though it, for, 1114 creatures as t01do1'ly as that, it qu insteag 1110 rising ', o feast ,just
to
..-sans way Tunny that I t,hould be re,ne(• scalps tomo that 100)31(1 go io 11.01114 alto 011eattragelllolit needed to develop a
:.i t. -0 Ir silo to yeti; naturally as 10v1r went to At:11Mo ,Jai.O clmoorl'ttl bingo, in the midst of lwhhch it
1 login to have n letpn that you V. ill in My troubles,
1"-1+ lr 110' mato t1ha11 1 ever 10001011 from 11':CI71tltC`a(1 0a.i pacing the room, aS l:el.•J>thed, Innen it Ilai'rew,Snrlk',blit s1nC4rC,
' 1 r et• '' nae rat died eu,lcsll• wn„y hi oustozn wltmi axoitc. i. lids face rat) nu cov1YSoriel
Ass Uo(1 will snake the innocent little
thin ; suffer and dio, just to gh o the
m0th5r a 14 (4800. You Said that We
should held all earthly possessions in
tear and trembling, arta that the hars'er
cur axporionco:4 worn here, tho bottor, it
they wean us from earth. I1 this is true,
we had bettor have no possessions and
form no ties, '1'1te 0)001114 and 0110(4 are
right. Let us shut ourselves up, and
wear hair -cloth instead of merino, and
catch our death of cold by utopian around
Baro -lout at all unseasonable lours. All
you said may bo good roligiou, but 1L',
Why con(rlu't the Pehng you call all -wisp When alto value to tho words, ” Jesus
and all-powerful cloviso-sonlo nicer way, said unto her, / am the 1(surr( "tion and
(00 more in accordanoo witlrthe naturo the life: lac thatbelioveth on too, thoug1,
Ho has given 0s 1 Supposo heavou is a ' he were load, yob shall ho live :
grander place than this world, that is no • "Anel whoii000er livetll and boliovoth
good reason for hating the world. This in me shall never die"—she stopped and
earth 18 o111 present home, and it looks said :
sensible that we should make aha most " This is very rOmarkablo linguag,e.
of it, and enjoy ourselves Ju it. Simlas° What (hies it 1110011 ?"
my father should say, ' Lottio, I want " head on ; road to tho end," ho
you to hate and despise your 1005011 urged.
home, because in five years I'm going to She caught his eager oxpeetar cy, and
givo you a palace; and if you can only ' r'eadmitll an absorbing interest, the truth
fall downstairs once or twice, and havo a ' that now scented stranger than any
fit of illness, so as to get weaned from it, fiction. -
1 shall be glad.' When slut reached tiro words—" Ito
s " How strangely aid monstrously 110- groaned in spirit, and was troublod,"
natural all that loud of talk is whim you sho raised her eyes 01 a quid: gimlet] of
come to put it into plain English," pro- inquiry.
!coded Lottie, after a moment, tapping , "Road on," said Hemstead, in breath
the floor impatiently with her foot. " If less iuteres1.
you must preach suoh doctrines as you e1 moment later, the Shortest verse in
diel this morning, I am sorry for you; the Bible was upon her lips. Then sho
twilit they aro true, I am sorry for the ceased reading aloud, and tho student
world, mysolf included. Tho trouble is saw her oyes hastily, as if she were 00'
not in you. I am surd you can make able to endure rho momentary delay of
almost an orator in time, if you can pronunciation, scanning the story to its
got a theme that won't givo men tllo end.
shivers, and set their teeth on edge. I ",\Ir. Hornstein-4"she askedoxciteelly,
never understood religion and 00001 liked " why did Jesus weep and groan, when
it; 1001 now that I do begin to understand in a few moments Lazarus would Ire
it, I liko it loss than ever." alive, and the seems of mourning changed.
II(nnstoad sat down in his chair—in- to ono of joy?"
Reed he sant: into it, and the fa.co 110 With teat:s in his eyes, 110 replied,
turned toward Icor was whito tnitl full of " Thoro is Ono 'guiding you—guiding us
pain. both—who eau answer that question
•' Miss Marscion,' he said slowly, "I bettor than I."
f.1ar I have given you, and all who heard "Wo 1)0110 11 that Josa4 Christ is God,
Inc, a very false iulpressiou of God and do wo not ?" sho half -mused, half-
('hri8tiauity; and yet I thought I was tiuestiullod; her brows contracting with
n l;' .r
�, , . 1i the troth." iitcuso thought, •
" Oh, I know you wore honest. There " Yes," ho said, roverenbly.
isn't a elishonest fibre in your nature: " Why, \Ir. Homstead, don't y01) sec
hat I wish you were all wrong. 011, how —don't you sec) ? This Being who is so
ei:lighted 1 sl mold bo if you were •t keenly sympathetic, so tenderly alivo
1- r , without knowing it, and 1w( cou111 to a scene of sorrow, that ilo Weeps and
Mal a r,digi '), that wouldn't mak° one, groans, though ]knowing that joy Js
WON/ run cold to think of ib." coming iu e, moment, in not tic' calm.
"slut a:3 roligiou docs me good, Aries passionless, hui!exiblo God you cicillecl
Marsden. It eheor5, 01010ills, and our heart' with this morning. Wily,
trongthlri.S m(." this is ill. it 1 extrava(glu,re on tender-
" Now you sue 11010 1.cn1,:1.-11ent you hanstoduess. This is 0 5cutlem, ..a that
are. You preach ach ono thing and feel and 1 can scarcely understand. What mu -
t an, lire." titer, even, would. first weep with her
' T t yin to sec ]tow 1 w•ae misled in children over 0, sorrow that she 11.119
11-ly •,41001, alai why what I Kahl was so about to 1411000 With 8 0)001 ! And. yet
l°1'15nn°t to you; and yet 011. mind is this all-powerful doses, who can r^also
t wtu,.ul, It appears to me that I dc. the dead t" link, scouts to cry just bc-
• loped the thought of the. text. ('1>i'1 01,1180 a11e ath„es do—just as if 11'
aril 1 mu glad 1 was not there, to tho couldn't lulu it—,lust as dear good
1 �. nt thatt ye may lailitivo,' These word a :un fit) Jane's " 11,4 moiatuu w•lten 811 '
W011111 800111 to show that 1To rcgarele'l hears of any ono in trouble. Mr. Hem.
transient padn5 a8 of very seaoudal;y stood, there n, surely' a luistak0 50m0-
1egnl•i:u1'c1 c:mup,rred with tho accol"• 1,1) r(. Ilow do 0011 reconcile this
1, n her: tit of Ilis great purposes. Why did Christ with tli.' otic you pec•;ental this
! t0 not go to Bethany at once, if it worn worsting + '
t n >?" " I don't, and cannot,"
1)111, it's a0 awful test, or yon ;(1•a "And yet 1111 did scar to Ilk: disciples,
i 1.11 :twilit intor1•rctalun. Let 1111 tukc T ,tau glad I w;ty,uuL th,•.q' „ coati ur•. d
Ca. thought out of O wrealmof theology :fatale iu deep 15''1losity. 1
'r 0,'1i0huu, awl living it dowuto practical tical Ilemstead parsed alai ronl 1 11 ,..1
>wpposo you go to New York to. a '010 minute's, and then 0:11.1 01 4d •
morrow and remain a fear days:, and to. "Hat gr0t lug 11- clear and lioa (tlf:ll
,Prow night the hoc burns up, and T aa flu' light.'
\ ith it. R 011111 "010. stat thought be, I .' 11 seems to pro flat c0u: 1diCti(tt '
^ n glad 1 was tat 11101'0 10 put out the Mill ',u,ki , itljoetcdly. Tests" d t4 0113
and to resew_ r..a.1 .0 (5hty "irl, 11001 (ods. 1811 gla,l.lwms not th0,.„;'
t r ,i0ilar;slk'u, tecanso hoe 510dau nod tl:ern is the fact that 111 l_ I' tr; pts
de=ath, for which silo watsail nnpropared, die: and tl crb also are the fuels of his
1'. its 1,4 a 0'1111 i5 to many, and roma iu weeping 1 al d raising l.-,aoa10 . .111,1
groat goo(1? Inlay bo -wrong, Mr. Horn- a think of it, I -.lo performed many inc.,
1 Lead, but T thiult you 100111(1 • et pretty acdos equally hind, and hu11u'd alien c
'.11 Il K och! i1 b, fore you wotijcl p(ri,i1 u0ir0 ed tell sorts of p(uple.
c a such a my n" I am to bu of>t(' a Certainly 110 dud, arias I1 ni
warning w 0 he 1 naughty girls," '• Blind idiot that 1. hart iu dui 111-.i a ,
1 can't m] ± ut myself leaving you a cl'ralo theological icleiu of my (.1n, in
1lld n,rr,'' 1dit..: :udinalow tone, fail of l oi13'preseitin„11to Co.'. 'f
itad a loot: that broueltb tho blood into 1110 :l;iblci, 1 can. never thank yup •
t,c't(ids fae0. cl_0 telt, -lis Marsden, for year .tine
1 thongltt yon would fool s0 111te gala >enso that has dissipated)' 110 fo• ,
er - t r.: 1 heartily. " Yon can preach bank of wor(l t. I think 1 sea '1111 1.,1.
101)1; 1,1011,,1 1010.0) 4, bit When you into light. Yon have place,. a cli'w in :
lout' t' vitt yc-tir !doctrines in11raCtiee. my lauds 10hiu11 1 truss will 1, -'eel ±•"t
yon 11(1(1,1 say as you did to 1110,' Iwislt only 100 but (Alter:, into ptetec T r,,:•
I could bear all for you.' heaven did }rr100nt a 1;11111, 1uitupa,su>ue,i, ice. •
111101.8 I'm selfish enough, but I can. at flexible Poing this morning, a Clod of
least tntderstand and apprceiatn gems pitrp1sus and dot:ro :4, and 1eu11nsi•lus-t ,
roles and kindly sympathy and could be will ; and .i.1,a1'tl felt before that the,
won by it. I3nb this cool and inflexible was tho god of theology and (111,0]ous
olaboratiou of character, 11111:re only the plilosapiry anther than the God of the
end is 00)15iclorecl, 'anal all our timid l'b1 1 l 1 1 ti t
511111110ng and human wealnt1ss ignored
—this antero ascoticrsm whish dospisea
the present world and life, is to 1110 en -
natural and moradro11'. I confess T,
mayor road tine 13iblo very moll, and
havo not listened. whorl it Wats read. I
have half forgotiontho story of Lazaris.
You left ol'f whore :Lazaldu5'was in his
r"�rave, and Gln 1s1 leas glad Ho was not
tl11r0 to prevont his (heath. IIIiL• tinea
1110,8110t all tate sto1y. T think, if T 00-
i,o iuh 1 rightly, ('hist raised Mtn to
111, Couto, gob a Bible, and lob us road
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