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The Wingham Advance-Times, 1985-11-27, Page 17G Croasroa.ds —No v. 27, 1985 1 eisure, features and entertainment ay of Honor ABOVE—Perth Veterans march to the National Resistance Monument in Sneek. •LEFT—The National Resistance Monument. Agoraphobics Prisoners'of the hom AFTERNOON PROGRAM During the afternoon new activities kept the veterans busy, but it is safe to assume that some took a little nap after dinner. Others strolled around in town on their own, familiarizing themselves with its landmarks and old' buildings. The "Waterpoort" ("Watergate", no connection, of course, with Washington, D.C.) is most picturesque. A good number of the veterans toured the city by bus, provided for that purpose by the town. In the neighbourhood of Sneek lies the little village of Ysbrechtum. Here a visit was paid to an old castle, where modern scions of ancient nobility have their abode. This trip to ancient Epema State was not unlike a visit to a museum and in its many rooms, hung with paint- ings of forefaltlhers, seascapes and ancient royalty, the veterans must have imagined themselves in the mysterious past. ' Later in the afternoon, in one off Sneek's larger meeting halls by the name of "Amicitia'.' ("friendship"), an informal meeting between the'citi- zens of Sneek and their Canadian guests 'was scheduled. This get -acquainted meeting allow- ed the people of Sneek to get to know their overseas friends better and en- gage them in conversation as far as the language barrier permitted. It was 40 years since the Canadians, young men then, were in town, and now there were not too many citizens left in Sneek who -had personal recol- lections of the soldiers from overseas. However, a few feeble men and women, who in the days of, yore had harbored young. Canadian military men in theirvmostly humble dwellings, were seen clutching the arm of their "boy", whom they had not seen, in most cases, for years and who by now were often grandfathers themselves. The eyes of those older citizens were lighting upas if recalling the days of liberation. What changes had oc- curred during all those 40 years of freedom, and what changes for the better during all those years of peace. And what a privilege to again lay eyes on the heralds of peace and victory over the forces of Nazism. The main hall of "Amicitia" was al- most too small to hold all the people. There was much talking going on, much of it confused and fragmentary, but one thing was sure, great joy and thankfulness were filling the hearts. Some of the veterans from Canada, being the centre of all the attention; • were almost overwhelmed by this show of popular acclaim. By Kim Dadson For 10 years of her life Shelley Smith feared leaving her home. She couldn't do the family grocery shop- ping and a simple task, such as buying shampoo at the local drug store was impossible. "There were lots of times I would run back out of a store; or I would leave a grocery cart half full and go back home," Shelley admits. Today she 'runs -the- family home -without- _ problem and even 'has a job. Some- thing she would never have been able to do a few years ago. Shelley suffered from agoraphobia, the fear of leaving the safety of one's home. It is not a simple fear that the agoraphobic contends with — "You get-.ho.l_flashes_a.n,d a real paw_ controllable panic. You think y could pass out and you're just hanging on for dear life. They call it a full blown panic." The Elmira housewife and mother describes the terror of an agoraphobic's life with clarity and is very descriptive. After all, the mental illness took 10 years of her, life and it was largely through her own efforts that she was able to journey back to living a normal life. It was first a letter in the syndicated Ann Landers' column which led her to a book by lir. Claire Weekes, "Hope and Help For Your Nerves", and then a radio program discussing the prob- lem with others who suffered the same affliction that started Shelley on Agoraphobia is one of the phobias that is not talked about or admitted to by those who suffer from it, not like the claustrophobic who freely admits to hating small, closed -in spaces or the next person who confesses a fear of heights. • In her book, Dr. Claire Weekes, MB, D Sc., MRACP writes, " ... people with agoraphobia rarely admit to their condition. They will find excuse after..excase-to_avoi.d_v i siting_ friends., going here, going there." • In fact the doctor, who is best known for her pioneering work in the study of nervous illness and anxiety, has had patients, " ... whose own husbands do not know about it, so well have they camouflaged their fears." un Agoraphobics do not fear that some- the journey back. The book "was like reading about myself; like the author knew me per- sonally," and coupled with the radio program, Shelley began to understand her _problem and the fact that there were many others ewhoo suffered TFie same way. 1t is estimated that 100,000 suffer in England, according to Dr. Weekes' book. Understanding was the first step on the road to recovery. "After four years. everything clicked. The book was my first catch." thing specific, such as a car accident, will happen to them, What Shelley feared was fear itself — she feared she would have a panic attack if she went outside and her own fear created the panic attack when she did venture out — so she stayed at home. In her book, Dr. Weekes explains, "Since this woman is afraid of having a spell when she is out, she is more likely to have one when she is out he - cause a spell is no more t.hah she, her- self, frightening herself. "How could she not panic when she is so afraid of panicking? She pre- pares the• way for panic before she leaves the house." Dr. Weekes writes in terms of "she" because more women than men suffer fi agoi aphnbra---Sfa-yi-ng- in—the home to raise the family might set the conditions which would allow the phobia to develop. Men who suffer from the illness are often home -town bound. They may avoid promotions at work; for instance, if, that promotion will mean travel away from the work- place where everything is familiar. Agoraphobia is by no means just another housewife syndrbme but a very real illness. Shelley found the medical commun- ity lacking in support and knowledge. Her doctor assumed she was a house- wife complaining and prescribed valium. "Soon, I couldn't look after the children," Shelley says of the valium. There weren't too many.people who did understand her condition. When • she found the books by Dr. Claire Weekes, she took them to a local counselling centre were thecounsel- lors admitted she knew more than they did and they were eager for her education. Today, with more publi city, agoraphobia is being recognized. Most people, if they don't know the term, know of the illness. - `-I-would-leave a grocery cart half full and go back home' • Shelley says an agoraphobic be- comes an actor at avoiding situations which could cause an attack. "You act a part that's not you." When she was out with the children and someone would be walking towards her, she would start talking to her children about -being late.and-thaLtheY had bet- ter hurry, thereby setting a scene that she really didn't have the time to stand and chat. Although the children came in handy as part of her act and as an ex - c -use for .not stopping and talking, they were also the reason she ventured out of the house at all. She would force herself out for a walk around the block and had a crutch of sorts with a small child in a stroller or in hand. If people came to her home, the fear of an attack would send her flying to the washroom or a bedroom to. at- tempt to calm down. Even Christmas dinner with the family would have been an ordeal some years. "It all starts to mushroom," Shelley says. The more she feared a panic attack would occur, the more likely one would happen and the more she, tried to avoid the situations which might precipitate one. Shelley could go for days without eating or just drinking coffee. Nausea was another side effectof an_attack-. if r • she -thought, what- -if _that -happens_-to she knew she was to attend a wedding me when I•'m not at home? "Y thought shower, for instance, on a Tuesday I would have to get hold of this so I night, she would stop eating on Mon- went out. And attacks do happen day. As part of her act, she would ar- •which bring .you back home. rive late at the shower and say that "At mylowest point, .1 wondered if I her husband had to go out so she would was suicidal." not be able to stay long. She would What actually causes agoraphobia 1 ave arty- when_she_fe.l.t she woulsl_is not known. -Shelley says a.strict up - Serving over 20,000 homes in Ontario's heartland It is early in the evening, about 7 o'clock and we are still writing May 4. The great Martini -Church of Sneek looms high and forbidding against the -0 gray sky. It is getting much cooler and a damp, penetrating wind blows through the, streets and around the massive church walls. Preparations are being made for the memorial service at the monument in the lee of the church, honoring Dutch resistance. fighters who gave their lives in the battle against Nazi tyranny. Here it is called "Remembrance of the dead". Barriers are set up to se- cure enough space for the bands and various organizations participating in the ceremonies on this national re- membrance day. Already a guard of honor of former members of the "Re- sistance" stands at attention, at the monument. These men and those of their comrades who cannot be here now on account of age or infirmities, played an important role in securing the vital bridges around Sneek and thus facilitated a quick advance by the Canadian troops. The impending memorial service bears, in the first place, a national character, where the Canadian veter- ans as guests are taking a place of honor. This is reflected in the march- ing order of the parade lining up at the town hall. It is led by the mayor off Sneek and his wife. Beside them walk his deputy and spouse, followed by Lt. -Col. John S. Whyte of Stratford, Ontario -and his wife. Beside Lt. -Col. Whyte marches Mr. Jongejans, a prominent citizen of Sneek and one of the main organizers, accompanied by his spouse. After them we see the town ad- ministrators and police authorities, followed by representatives of re- sistance. organizations. In their wake come the veterans and their wives preceded, by the regimental cere= monial band. The rear is brought up by town councillors and committee members. In the meantime the bands posted nearby play with 'triumphal but sub- dued elan a series of national tunes beloved by .the people, many of whom are humming along with tears in their eyes. The great crowd in the spacious square around th&church strains to get a good look at the parade which presently comes into view. The pipers of the ceremonial band attract much attention and the wail of the bagpipes fills the air. A historic moment has arrived. A young muSician marches up to the monument and plays the "Last Post". Continued on Page 2 "The two of us were suffering from the same thing," Shelley recalls now with an ironic laugh. "I think you realize you have agora- phobia when you are really small. You've probably always had it and lit- tle things could have sparked it. I never was comfortable going out but did so because my parents wanted me to." Her first attack ("It hits you like a lead balloon.") happened at home and have to go to avoid the attack. tooth "Home is, like your prison. You hear of people having this for 25 years! It's almost like being a baby and starting to walk again. "It wiped out those years, from age 20 to 30." • Shelley says some people who don't understand the illness think 'a person should just get out and get a job and get living. It's like having a severe case of the flu and being told to get out of bed. "You force yourself out, but it is draining. Even getting up is hard work. 1 would not be eating for days. If your body is that run down, so is your mind." Shelley suffered her first attack after she was married. Fortunately, however, she is married to a man who went ahead and did the shopping and the errands for her. The illness did not break up her marriage as she believes it did to another couple they knew. Shelley and the other wife were was happening low, day-to-day talking on the -telephone one day be- process. taking a step forward and ac - cause the two couples hadn't gotten cepting the setbacks when they came. together. The wife told her that her For six years the phobia was at its husband was house -bound, afraid to most severe but it was a 10 -year go out and preferred to stay in his own period before Shelley felt free of the home. phobia. bringing is a common thread but ac- cording to Dr. Weekes in "Peace from Nervous Suffering", the cause is not important. "The basic cause of these attacks has usually been fatigue, or some other form of stress, following a variety of experiences --- difficult con- finement, debilitating illness. and 'so on, Occasionally there .is no obvious reason and happily I have rarely found disclosing an original cause of agoraphobia essential for cure." Dr. Weekes advises the agoraphobic to face the panic and accept what is happening, not to fight it but allow it to pass by. Tensing or fighting the panic makes it worse and in fact is what cre 'tes and increases the panic at- tack. "I have seen many patients cured after more years of suffering than some of you may have lived. So cheer up!" Dr. Weekes writes. For Shelley, it was recognizing what ..Iw...vwyw,... 777,7, Even now she.ad'mits she wouldn't want a job that confines her to one desk or a certain place but likes the freedom to walk around a bit on her Own, a preference anyone could un- derstand without being agoraphobic.. Today, Shelley appears to be an out- going, friendly person who likeseto get out and have a good time, whether it's a dance or a quiet cthp of coffee with a friend, events many of us take for granted but which Shelley could not enjoy for 10 years. People with Agoraphobia rarely admit to their -condition 7470i. 7775La:i